What am I turning into...

Another day and another shit comes along. Good news! I got my computer back. But I have yet to download all the essential stuff.

At the rate we're going, I'm not sure about how the band will progress in the future. I'm trying to write new songs but so far we don't have time to jam. Brandon is part of our band now. But it seems that the energy that we once had, isn't there anymore. I'm trying to make this work. Element-X has been around for 6 years now and we only have minor achievements. Maybe we're bored of each other but no one dares to voice out. Every one of us are facing problems.

One problem of mine is that I didn't manage to earn my parent's trust. They wouldn't believe me in anything I said. I have to rely on Nadiah(my girlfriend) to listen to all my problems. Life doesn't seem simple anymore and I think that I am now in the worse situation I've been all my life. I'm just working part-time, I don't have a sense of belonging to my family, my band that I treasure so much don't seem to progress and my university application is driving me nuts. My confidence is going really down. I have only Nadiah to keep me up. To brighten my day. What if one day I'm left stranded alone? Will I survive? I have to... I'll try... I'm currently writting a song about somebody who is not being appreciated all his life. Well, to be selfish, it's from my perspective...