2006

It's been 28 days past the new year and it doesn't show any possible brightness throughout the year. It seemed that this is the downturn of my life. I kept screwing things up. I think it is just meant to be this way. I have myself to blame. Maybe I'm getting old or maybe I'm just getting to careless in making decisions. My life lacks motivation and I am really struggling in proving those who don't have faith in me wrong. I wasn't born this way, but I've seen a tremendous change in me since my days back in secondary school. But I guess that's not enough. I have to strive harder.

I'm a crazy idiot who talks to himself and motivates himself. I don't want to rely or even want to trouble anybody no more. Funny how only 28 days just passed and I can review this much about myself. I will try harder to survive. I am myself in this world.

And now, I need to loose some fuckin weight... Peace and Goodnight sweet earth... You've been very kind to me but I've been a disappointment to you all. Sorry... I'll try harder...